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Daily Quotes

"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."

~Dr.Seuss


Daily Lyrics

Lyrical Excerpt taken from "In the Middle" written, composed, and performed by Jimmy Eats World.

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
or looked down on
Just try your best,
try everything you can
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
when you're away
It just takes some time
Little girl you're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be alright, alright
Hey, you know they're all the same
You know you're doing better on your own,
so don't buy in
Live right now, yeah, just be yourself
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else
It just takes some time
Little girl you're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be alright

Friday, March 5, 2010

today is new DAMNED day

i have so much on my mind and so much that i would like to write down, but i just don't feel it today. which actually causes me immense amounts of pain and shame. i'm extremely stressed right now. i wish i could just fade away into sleepy nothingness. yet there's so much to do here. so much that i constantly fail at. so much that i never do right. RAR!

as you can see i'm back to 117 on the dot. all i can say is ARG!

yesterday sucked. BLAH!

today's a new day. haven't eaten anything. no solid foods. had 2 hot green/ginseng teas. lotsa water. 2 cups of coffee with just a little bit of milk (i would say 50 or 60 cals worth since it was whole milk). and a little bit of a protein drink (probably a little less than half a serving = about 80 cals). so far so good. i do not plan on allowing any solid foods pass these lips today! maybe i'll have a little more protein drink and perhaps some broth. i'm estimating no more than 200 cals today!

wish me luck ladies!

age - 29
height - 5'4
weight - 117 LBS
BMI - 20.08

2 comments:

EedeeKnows said...

You and I are spot on right now. I went back up to 117 today too :( Been fasting for 25 hours though and only plan on eating 100-150 cals worth of fruit so I'm hoping to drop a full pound when I wake up tomorrow. Hopefully you'll be able to do the same!

Z. said...

I know how that feels! Ugh. It like your body just want to be a magnet back to that same weight. I feel ya! Push through! You can do it!

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