sorry girls. ive been missing through out the week. although i'm sure no one really noticed. blah blah. anywho. ive been a bit preoccupied with work and family drama. as usual. and my plan has lost a little starlight in my eyes (if that makes any sense). i haven't lost much. and i haven't gained. and i haven't really been focusing on my plan. but ive been restricting still, just not as strictly. haven't really been counting cals too much. just missing meals and cutting portions in half. but not counting as religiously as before. ive been too..... stressed.... with other drama. like... my damn mother-in-law. and how bad she needs to get THE FUCK OUT. blah blah. on that note, i'm not going into any details. i have to go into my own little imaginary world so as NOT TO KILL HER. blah blah.
sometimes i really think i'm a horrible person. just disgusting. simply revolting. seriously. this sucks major donkey balls. and i need some damn peace of mind. ARG!
and.... i need to be 110 soon. or i'm going to freak out. majorly.
damn i'm poignant.
here's something a bit more positive. so i was working yesterday at a school that i interned at and one of my student's moms saw me (after not seeing me in a couple months) and said "Have you lost weight? You look FABULOUS! You must have lost a ton of weight! How much did you lose since i last saw you? You look great!!" and it made me feel so damn good. then two more people at this school mentioned my weight loss and told me i looked great. it was awesome and i guess, damn noticeable. thank you god. i was such a whale back in decemeber. YUCK!
okay. i'm done now.
age - 29
height - 5'4
weight - 115 LBS
BMI - 19.74
height - 5'4
weight - 115 LBS
BMI - 19.74
1 comment:
I definitely noticed you were gone! I was just thinking the other day that I needed to start commenting more so you would know that I'm reading!
Congrats on the weightloss! Nothing is as motivating as people noticing :) Good luck getting to 110, hun. You'll get there-- you ARE getting there. Just keep pressing on. You CAN do this!!!
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