i haven't had enough courage to step on the scale today. so i'm going to go ahead and lie to myself and say i'm still 115. last night was fucking ridiculous. i want to blame it on being sick with bronchitis and drunk as shit from post-wedding-reception retard-ness. whatever. then this morning i ate buttered toast with my daughter for breakfast and left over mac&chz for lunch. wtf is wrong with me? i can't believe myself. i was doing so good. or at least i thought so. i need more self control god damn it. BLAH! this is driving me absolutely bonkers. i can't seem to focus on my weight loss at all recently and forget about my 3579 plan. that's been blown straight to hell weeks ago.
bah. i need a fresh start. whatever. i can't think of this right now. i'm too tired, too hungover, too sick, and damn starving today!
i have to work tomorrow, even though its against my better judgement (HA! like i have anything like that). i'm still ass sick but we are damn poor and are having HUGE financial issues currently. so off to sub tomorrow. i will be getting another pay check in a week, yet its all going to bills. nothing left over for me. of course, i never spend it on myself. always on my girl. toys. clothes. food. whatever she wants.
anywho. i'm gonna shut up now and hopefully nap a bit before she gets up from her nap. poor sick feverish girl. its back to the doctors with her tomorrow, my husband will be taking her and i'll let you all know how she is.
age - 29
height - 5'4
weight - 115 LBS
BMI - 19.74
1 comment:
Don't beat yourself up too bad. Everyone slips up worse than they'd like to admit every once and again. You'll be back in the groove before you know it!
I hope you and your daughter feel better soon <3
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