i've been out of town. visiting with family. close family. family that are well aware of my issues with food. see.... my history... in the past.... when i was 16 and 17, i was hospitalized for cocaine addiction and ED. this was back in 1996, prior to the label addition of EDNOS to the DSM book in 2000. anywho, i had (still have) tendencies towards both. although the cocaine was only a symptom, i only did it so i wouldn't be hungry. believe me. it was more about being thin, than being high... although that was a nice added bonus at the time consider the crap i was dealing with as a teenager.
welps, so long story short, i had to tread carefully while away and around these family members of mine. and i gained 2 LBS back. BAH!
my scale is currently reading 112.6. so of course i round back up to 113. i have been liquid fasting all day today, so far so good. all i've had is some chicken broth (20 cals), 1/2 Naked Protein serving (110 cals), and a 8.4 oz sugar free red bull (10 cals). i am extremely nervous today. and NOT eating has been a simple thing because of it. i want to be 100 by may 1st so damn bad. yet i'm not sure how i will be able to accomplish that being the date today. not without cutting off a limb or something (just kidding).
age - 29
height - 5'4
weight - 113
BMI - 19.4
3 comments:
Glad you are back! I missed you! Now that the holidays are over, you will be back in the game, with boost to the metabolism, i'm sure. Woo! I'm excited for you because I know you can do this!
Don't let this break you down.
I gained my two pounds back, as well.
We can lose it again, and more.
Keep your liquid fast going, it sounds like you're back on the right track.
Don't worry about it dude, you'll drop those pounds before you know it! You're doing sooo much better than me now. I'm back at 116.5 due to anxiety/asthma/allergies and whatever is making me feel like my heart is going to explode. It sucks, because I feel legit sick if I don't eat now. So I'm a huge whale again. Ugh. Be stronger than me, beauty.
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