still preggo and much larger

okie. i'm 140 LBS. this is both good and bad news. good bcuz I have only really gained 2 LBS since i first found out about the baby. bad bcuz i'm a cow.

i've been healthy. eating all the food groups. taking my vitamins. doing all the things a good mother is expected to do.

i know that this is the time when i will be gaining quickly. the baby will be doing the most growth and my body will insist on more calories. extensive amounts to be exact.

3 more months. January. February. March. then baby. then nursing. then maybe i will be able to shed this weight. however, during the nursing i will have to consume massive amounts of calories in order to make milk.

i'm hoping that once the summer has come and gone, that i will be able to get back on a more motivating food plan. something that will burn calories quicker and then i will be able to consume less as well.

i want to be back to 100, but i know its a far stretch. there's a good chance that i could be 150 before this baby comes out.

anywho......... i'm sure that everyone or anyone who reads this thinks i'm a monster and that i am worthless and shouldn't be procreating. that my daughter and my new son are both doomed to insanity bcuz their mother is obviously insane.

well... i try my best. i go out of my way to make sure my daughter is loved and that she has what she needs, as well as wants. i want the best for my kids. my obvious sickness doesn't change my love for my children. this has been a very long fight for me. up and down the scale. on and off the ED roller coaster. and this is my personal struggle. it isn't for my kids. and i have and will do everything to keep it away from them.

age - 31
height - 5'4
weight - 140 LBS
BMI - 24.03